some thoughts: catharsis
people always say that it's good to have fun and date when you're young, to explore, to hookup. but is it really? put me at the mast and tempt me. tempt me with all you can in this life. i will not give in for i must say that nothing will be more tempting than the allure of true connection. whatever this "casual" shit is, it's a shitty reason to not take people or connections seriously. to not commit, to not want to settle down with someone, and to take people for granted. why must i give someone the benefits of a relationship without the best parts? what kind of relationship is that? to give someone my body, my mind, my time, and i can't give them my soul? my heart?
sounds like a waste to me. there is no fun in that. "risk-free vulnerability" is an oxymoron. you cannot be vulnerable and be seen without risk. there is no catharsis in such a casual thing because you are not being truly connected. i cannot step down and debase myself as to use my body as collateral for fun. maybe one day i will understand.